I'm having the week from hell.

Because I really want to say:

"I'm upset because I can't deal with so little affection and communication. I feel like you are neglecting me because you could come running when Kylie called but you can't set aside time for me. I don't know how to talk to you anymore because you always tell me that I'm too negative when I try to explain how I feel. I don't like being told not to be clingy because when I'm not, you assume I'm cheating on you. I don't know what to do but I want to talk this out."

But I can't do that. I feel emotionally invalidated.

It's tough when you feel like everyone's out to get you, when you feel that no one is on your side. I know I have some people who support me but - when one of them is your (until recently estranged) ex-boyfriend who went through a similar experience and broke up with his neglectful girlfriend and your older aunt who knows this kind of situation, the odds are certainly not in your favor.

It's painful, to say the least. I can't talk to you, though. I don't think I can survive being shoved away again.